-Death II-

What always Happen::..Accident..::

Just heard from a friend of mine today, that a friend's Father passed away, because of an Accident. Details Unknown, just Hope she'll Stay Strong.

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Case I::..Family:Father And Mother I Love You..::

I'll Start this with her Father. If I'm in her Shoes, I cannot even Start to Imagine how much Tears I'll Cry, how I'll Break Down and turns Weak. And if I'm even Able to Accept Reality, what's more to Return to Reality.

Every Time I Dreamt of Death, Especially when it Involves my Parents, I always wakes up Crying, Jolted out from Bed with my Heart Racing. I cannot Envisage Something that has Never Happen to the Ones I Love. But I know, I have to Write about it, about Death. For Someday, I'll have to Deal with it, Face it myself. If I were her, would I want People to Console me? Show Pity and Compassion, or would I want to be Left Alone? Escaping Reality Momentarily.

Death has no Reverse Switch, we can't just make Someone that's Gone into a Deep Sleep to Wake Up. For the Soul has Probably Arrived to a Faraway Land, perhaps Someplace where Man Love to Call as Heaven, where Misery do not Exist, but only Euphoria, and Smiles that Fills the Place. But How Can the Living knows For Sure? How can they Move on Unsure of What Awaits those That has Breathed their Last Breath? We can Never Know. After All, there's a Reason, it's called the After World. Right here, right now, we're living in the Before World.

I had Quite a Number of Friends that has Lost their Dad or Mum in their Early Teen Years. Until Now, I Still Cannot Comprehend the Pain they had to go through, and I hope I Never had to until the Day where I could. But Life is Uncertain, so is Death.

Each Time my Dad Rides his Motorbike Out, I Pray to the Buddha that Everything will be Alright, and that He comes Home Safely, that's all I Ask for. My Family is my Everything, I cannot Predict Life without Them. My Home is My Sanctuary.

Without them, what Makes it any Different than Hell? Will Heaven Exist in My Heart & Soul again? Would I be able to Redeem myself for the Wrongs I've Done? Resurrect the Spirit that had since Vanished from My Physique?

I Have to be Strong, I Will be Strong for them. They're all that Matters, more than Anything Else in My Life. After All, We're of the Same DNA & Blood.

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Case II::..Lover..::

I knew of a Girl who Lost the Love of her Life, She Loves him Dearly, He was Just the Same. But an Accident took it all Away. He Left her Alone, She Never Forgets about Him. But She Moves on, in the Name of His Memory. She Still Counts how Many Days has He Been Gone, but her Tears No Longer Fall. For He Lives on in Her Heart, Always Had, and Always Will be her Greatest Love of All. The Story that will Never Ends. For She Believes, No Matter Where He is, He's Always Close By, Looking After Her.

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Case III::..Friends..::

When one of your Best Friends says Goodbye before you do. What does it Feels like, losing Someone that had their Share of Joy & Sadness with you? Suddenly, the Whole World seems to have Stop Moving, the Clock Stops Ticking, the Sky turns Grey, and the Rain Poured Heavily. The Atmosphere is Simply too Heavy & Dark to Withstand.

Alas, you Lost Someone to Talk to, Someone that Listens, Someone that Makes you Laugh, Someone that Cries her Heart out at You, Someone that has Always been Supportive of You, Someone that has Always Stood her Ground for you, Someone that Always Reserve a Place for you in her Heart.[her=Her|His]

What Happens when you Lost Someone Like that? One that you Really Cared for, One You've Spent Half of your Life Getting to Know them, One that you has Begun to Regard them as Family.For they say Friends are Siblings that we Never Had. What's more when You Love them as A Part of your Life. Their Presence you have Gotten Used to. Yet Suddenly, it all Fades Away, and Turns into Dust. What's Left is the Path You've Walked on, the Place You've Been to, The Memories Both of You Shared.

It Saddens me when Death Happens. It Pains me to See it Happens. It Hurts me if it Happens. I only Hope that Death wouldn't be Painful for the Ones I Love & Care.

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What Can we Do::..Be there for the Ones that Lost their Dearest. Be Strong when it is you that Lost your Dearest.:.Life moves on No Matter What, there will be a Time when the Grieving shall Stop, For the One that's Gone want you to Mourn no more..::

-Natural Disaster-

Now, I don't think it's Necessary to get us all Started about the Natural Disasters that are Happening around the Globe recently, what's with the Earth Quake, Flood, Typhoon, etc, etc, etc. However, for those that do not Read or Watch the News I'm pretty Sure they're Ignorant about it. So here is what I have to Say.

I switched on the News the other day, just to hear the Comment made by a Victim of the Earth Quake in Padang, Indonesia. Here is what he Commented. "I believe that it is God's Intention that these had to Happen, I Accept it as my Fate and will not Begrudge His will."

The Second I heard him saying that, I was like, What The Heck is Wrong with These People? Up to Yesterday, the Death Toll has Rose to a Significant Number of 1,117 . And he was Saying?? That God had Allowed such Episodes to Unveil? I can't Believe it. By putting it that Way, doesn't it means that God wants us all Dead? It's not One or Two, but a Tremendous Amount of People Affected, I Believe that Death has been Decided for us Even Before we Existed. But All At Once? This Certainly has Nothing to do with Fate, not as I See it. Is it Really God's Will? Only God Knows.

The Public should know Better than to Blame it all on God. Surely, they did not Resent Him for all that Occurred. But saying it's Fate and Accepting their Destiny doesn't seem Far Fetch of having Him held Responsible for it. God Exist because People needed to Find Solace, and He is their Answer to Everything. Why, What, Where, When and How the Universe Works. In the Stone Ages, they Prayed to the Sky, Trees, Animals and etc. Nature was their God those days, the Answers to the Questions they seek. When they Needed Water, there's Rain. When they Needed Light, there's Sun. When they Needed Food, there's Plants.

So Which is the Real God? For Whom are the Director, and For Whom do we Play Scriptwriter? The One that Plays Out our Life like a Chess Set as He moves His Pawn According to His Wish, Deciding Who to be Crowned as The King and Queen, Upgrading those He Regards as Worth to be Bishop and Knight. We are all Within the Control of His Fingertips, just a Switch of Event, and Gone we'll be, like the Dust, off with the Wind.

-Chess Game-

::..Are you Willing to Accept Whatever Comes as it is? Or are you Willing to Fight for What you Believe can Change?..::

-Fooled-

18PL::..The Following contains Explicit Content and Vulgar Words[that I will Never Utter on Daily Basis] which are Strongly Advised not to be Spoken under any Circumstances. I for one Hate People using these Words, and the Fact that I'm writing it Now is Because I am Extremely Piss Off till the Point where my Head is About to Burst into Flames. And those Words just kept Revolving in My Mind..::

Disclaimer::..The post before this is Fictional Other Than the Way I Thought & Felt Regarding The Subject, which Turns Out to be not True at all..::

First off, what the Mother Fucker!! Asshole!!! I've been Dupe. Yep, I of everyone, has been Fooled, by None Other than my Best Friend. Bullshit!! A Practical Joke it seems, to Fool me & another friend of mine, which pretty much Ends up Fooling the Whole Class. So I went to school this Morning, just to Realize that She Acted all the way Through, even when I Repeated in her Face, that it is Impossible she'll get herself in such a Deep Shit. Honestly, what the Heck am I Suppose to Feel Now??!! Happy that it is Not True, or Laugh at myself for Being A Fool?? Well, you know what? I'm doing Neither, For it's not Funny at all.

The Rest of My Friends seem to be Okay with it. Now here's the Thing, I'm not Mad at that One Person, but also The Other One that was in Accord with her. But the Person I'm Intensely Mad with is None Other than Myself, for being a Fool yet again. And it's not the First Time, and it's never gonna be the Last. Others would say it's not my Fault, her Acting was simply Too Good. That it's okay that I've been Fooled, for they have been too. The Rest of My Friends asked me not to Take it so Seriously, after all, it's just a Prank. Is it??!! Is it that Amusing to you?? Well, look who's Laughing?? Not Me.

Sorry??!! That's all you can Say??!! Why don't I do the Same Thing to you, then I say Sorry, would you Forgive me?? I know you Would, that wasn't a Question, that was a Statement. You don't take things Seriously, Hell do you care Anything I said to you. Whether it's a Lie or Not. But I'm not you, I Trusted You. What Hurts me the Most isn't What The Lie is About, but the Lie itself.

You've Known me for 7 Years, you should have Known that if There's One Thing I couldn't Stand, is being Lied to. Am I such an Easy Person to Fall Prey that People seems to Love Fooling Me a lot??!! I can't Believe it, just like I couldn't Believe what you said Before, yet I End Up Buying your Story, I guess I don't know you After all. But Thanks to you, I Started to See a Person's True Nature.

Because of your Story, I Recognize the kind of Person Everyone is, and not just you. On the Stand they would take if Such Shit Really do Happened, and on what Basis are they at when a Friend goes Through such Event. Apparently, no one Seems to Care, no one Seems to think it's a Big Deal. Isn't it? If it was the Truth, it wasn't a Big Deal? Is that how you see things as?

All Due to your Credits, I Came to Terms that However Open Minded I am, it is Limited to my Mind, and not Out of It. I Cannot Think Out of The Box, I Cannot Bend the Boundaries, I'm That Kinda Girl, that is Able to Accept the Craps Happening around the World, but not the Little Shits People I Care about does to me. It Appears that My Tears ain't Priceless After All. Why would it be? When it's not made of Diamonds, neither is it Worth a Cent. But taking my Concern and Play a Fool with it, does it Serves as your Entertainment for the Day?

I try to Seek the Courtesy in My Heart to Bring Myself to Forgive & Forget, the Lies you Told, the Pain you Inflicted. But I don't see a Reason to it. Let me gives you an Example. If a Husband Cheated on her Wife, and got Caught Red Handed, even if the Wife still Loves Him, even if She's willing to Forgive Him, One Thing For Sure, She will never Forget. If I were her, I'll Leave Him. If he can Stray once, he can do so Twice. If you can Lie once, you will Lie to me Again.

Remember the Story of the Shepherd Boy? Every Time he Lied that a Wolf has Came, the Villagers would Rush to the Scene only to Find out They've Been Deceived. Every Single Time, it so Happens that it was All But a Lie. But One Day, a Real Wolf did Came, and when the Boy Cried for Help, No One comes Forward, for they ain't Willing to be Fooled again. The Shepherd Boy Paid for his Lies with all his Sheep. Everything comes with a Price, sometimes the Price is more than you can Afford to Lose.

Perhaps I'll Trust You Again, even if you are to Fool me Another Time. But there would be a Time, when you're Telling the Truth, that I would No Longer Trust You. I don't know if I could even Trust you Now, but you can try Gaining back my Trust, which is Practically Broken Right at this Moment. Sorry to Say, that for the First Time I'm very much Dissapointed to have a friend that takes me as a Fool.

-That Kinda Girl-

::..Man are Naturally Born to Act, Life is but a Stage that Changes Scene According to our Preference..::

-Accidentally or Fated?-

18SX::..The Topic May be Sensitive and Awkward to some as It Is to Me. So Do Me a Favor and Read at your Own Risk..::

::..Accidentally in Love.
Accidentally Together.
Accidentally made Love.
Accidentally got Pregnant.
Accidentally get Married..::

Those are the Accidents I was referring to. Nothing to do with car crash, nothing to do with anything that Hurts Anyone but Everything to do with a Soul that is Accidentally created. The little being that has yet to Form inside the Womb. Yep, I'm talking about the Fetus inside of my Friend's Stomach. That is like 1 month old?

She's one of my Best Friend, and she just Blasted out to us that she's going to get Married next year? I was like? Huh? Come on? Was Skeptical at first, didn't buy her Story at all. But she stood her ground, and my other friend told me that it really is True. It took me Forever to Swallow it in, Absorb Everything she said. I'm still having a Hard Time trying to Believe that it is True.

Only from her Expression that I can tell she isn't playing a Fool this time. This is suppose to be Discreet and only the Girls knew about it. But I just had to Let It Out somewhere. I have some sort of Mixed Emotions inside of me, what I should Feel about it. I mean, it has Nothing to do with me, but she is my friend, what should I Feel for her then? I wonder if it would be better if I don't know about it, as I'm still in a State of Shock, even now, the News simply came too Abruptly.

She thought of Dropping the Baby the Moment she found out. We all told her not to do so, that will be Totally like Murdering your Own Flesh and Blood. Surely, it has yet to take on any Shapes, but that doesn't makes it Okay to Get Rid of It. I Believe in Reincarnation, I Trust that a Wondering Soul is just Waiting to be Reborn through the Physique of an Infant. Hence, it will be a Sin to Deprives them of the Chance. Even more when Abortion is Out of The Question.

Yet, a couple of my friends seem to think that Abortion is a Better Option, for having a Baby at our age, is so not the most Wonderful Thing to happen, to them it's a Burden, their Future would be Ruined, then I ask of you, what about the Future of the Child? What about Her or Him that is to Arrive in this World, your Little Package, your Surprise Gift, a Blessing in Disguise perhaps?

Whatever you did, you ought to take on Full Responsibility for it. For your Future, you Sacrifice your Child. that sounds Extremely Selfish to me, the Poor Child weren't even given an Opportunity to Speak, to Crawl or even to Write. What makes you think the Child isn't your Future? Would you be Able to Forgive yourself Day after Night after you Committed the Sin?

If you can't Fend for your Child, in places of Poverty and War, then it's Best not Making them in the 1st place. But if I were a Refugee that got Pregnant in a War Zone, I'll choose Abortion and Deal with the Outcome myself. But here, we weren't at a Place that is Poor, we weren't lack of Food, we weren't Deprived of a Home. So then, what would be the Reason to not have the Child?

::..Fated to Love,

Fated to be Together,

Fated to make Love,

Fated to be Pregnant,

Fated to get Married..::

Is it really Fate or merely Accidental? She was a Virgin, that was her 1st, with her Boyfriend she hasn't know for long, even more someone she has yet to Love. Only Admire. And they made Love??? Due to a Moment of Temptation?

It's kinda hard for me to Process and Accept the Fact, for Never has it Occurred to me that it will be as Early as Now for One of my Best Friends to Give Out a Red Bomb[Wedding Invitation]. And Bang! She hit the Jackpot just like that. It's like Striking the Lottery, only thing is it doesn't Necessary Spell a Smile on someone's Face.

Well then, at least the Guy in Question is willing to take Full Responsibility on her. I guess that is One Thing we should be Glad for her. I said it all too many times about Accidental Marriage, that it Never Last. But when it Happens to my Own Best Friend. I Sincerely Hope it does. I pray she'll be Happy. Now & Always.

::..In this case, the Miracle is a Baby, which in turn May create Love..::

If it were Me, which I doubt I'll ever be Caught in such Situation, say me Conservative, but I'm not going to Tolerate Pre-Marital Sex, to me the Term Make Love means Being with the one you Love, and well, making Love with Him? I'm a Virgin and will stay that way until the day I get Married, which is also another Uncertainty, of Whether or Not I will ever find the One that Fits me Best. Now then, Skip that.

Putting myself in her Shoes. What Would I Choose to Do? Would I Really Keep the Child? Would I have the Courage to Face those that are Prejudice towards Me? Can I Face a Society that Disdain Sex Before Marriage? Can I Go Through it All with Strong Determination? Can I Love the New Born like a Gem that Should be Cherished?

I ask myself All those Questions. Yet I can't Figure Out Any of the Answers. I Understand that this isn't Easy for Her, she never Expected it to Happen. Especially not when it Happened just Once? I guess the Adrenaline Rushed to her Head at that Time, causing her to Lose her Judgment and wasn't thinking Straight. Seduction is Simply Hard to Resist.

Anyway, since you can't turn back the Clock, I guess the only thing to do is Face Reality. Think of it in a Positive Way, and not Anything Negative. We're 19 anyway, it's Legal to get Married and Pregnant. I heard Worse Case, 14? 15? 16? That is the Moderate Age Teenage get Pregnant these Days. Besides, we're No Longer Teens, we're Young Adults, gonna be Adults, pretty much when we hits 21. When the Gate of Freedom is Open. Look at the Bright Side, she'll be one Young Mum when her Kids are in their Teenage years. I'm always impressed with Young Parents. Who wouldn't? Back at those days, they get Married by This Age. Even Now.

FYI, my Grandma's Maid is only in her early 30's. And she's already a Grandmother. She got Married at the age of 14. Her Daughter did the Same. It's nothing Unusual in Places like From Where she came. For the Economy is Slow Rising, and One of the Ways the Parents can Hope that their Child Feeds well by the time they are Adolescent is by Marrying them off. Letting go of a Burden on their Shoulders.

When I see a Young Couple of my Age with a Child. I find it a Picture of Happiness. But Whether or Not things are the Same back at Home, No One can tell for Sure, just like Half of those that got Hitch Up due to Cases like this would Sign for Divorce Eventually, but that is for the Half. The other Half may as well Lead a Wonderful Life, you Never Know, you Never Would, until it Happens.

PS::..Pretty Please, if you Can't Restrain your Lust, do Remember to do Safety Measures, there's no Harm in Troubling yourself for Awhile, rather than getting yourself in Trouble Later On..::

::..Life holds no Guarantee, Happiness is for you to Attain.:.Love the Way you Live, and Live the Way you Love..::